I’m on a down swing in my workout routine. I’m not seeing big results on the scale and things are getting to be monotonous. I realized the other day that I was using the balance scale incorrectly…once I started using things correctly it added 12 pounds to my overall weight. I still lost 2lbs last week…but seeing the number go up instead of down was just a killer. I had passed what I considered quite a milestone, only to see it “taken away”.
The weekend was rough, in 4 days I got 2 workouts in for 40min each…I just had no motivation. I think a lot of it comes from not seeing the drastic results now like I was before. My clothes have fit pretty much the same for quite a while now, the scale went up (actually went down…but the psychological effect was “up”), and I’m getting irritated about not being able to eat whatever I want. My knee is also turning into a larger problem. It pops and snaps now anytime I straighten it out. I wouldn’t call it painful yet, but there is a sensation from the pop. It’s very similar to when you pop your knuckles, only it happens all the time. It is a bit concerning. I am holding out hope that I can drop weight and rehab it a bit, but more and more that seems like it’s only delaying the inevitable. Surgery is seeming more and more like a foregone conclusion. I think there’s been too much weight on it for too long. Hopefully I can drop weight and build strength back in the knee quickly enough that it doesn’t impact the other one. I’m hoping to have a doc look at it the beginning of next year and if something needs to be done to it have it worked on in the spring. I don’t want to struggle with crutches on the ice, and I want to make sure I have a solid healthy foundation to try and work through the down time. Read the rest of this entry »
